1 wOrD..

SHAYTT!!~~ >:(

I have these Dreams...

I have this dream..
to be with someone that I fall in love with,
with all my life..
o how I wish it will come true...

I have this dream..
that when i go to bed, this funky hot guy that I'm in love with,
is next to me, hugging and cuddling me,
have a little whispering chat, give me good night kiss,
and I would smile until I meet him again in my dream..
the next day I wake up,
he's the first 1 that i see..
hmm...
how I wish it will come true...

i know that not everyday is a bright shiny day..
sometimes it's raining, at times, it's thunderstorm..
that's how life goes about..
i think i am prepared to go through the weathers..
but i certainly don;t know if the one that i always think that he's the one,
would want to go through the days with me..

i have this dream...
walking down the aisle, together with him,
smiling like nothing else matters,
hmm.. will this dream come true??

i have this dream...
cruising my life with the one that i love,
helping my loved one to cruise his,
through the ups and downs,
yet, it's hard to tell...

every rainy days, i feel closer to him,
but its sad to not to know how he feels..
but i really hope that he feels the same..

i do not know how this story would end,
but all i am wishing for is my silly dreams would come true..

deep in my heart,
i always love him...

In Despair...

i spend my last weekend somewhere in brunei, with my family and my cousin from my mom's side.. nice place - to eat, to shop and to spend some leisure time..

when i got home, i was expecting nice after holiday time with this person, but until today, it was a total disaster, and total opposite.. damn.. seriously, i wasn't hoping for this..

dammit!~

If I saw U in Heaven..

My heart melt involuntarily when someone sing this song..
I can even smile when I sleep;
and it truly penetrate certain episodes in my dream...
;p

would you know my name
if i saw you in heaven
would it be the same
if i saw you in heaven

I must be strong
and carry on
'cause i know i don't belong here in heaven

would you hold my hand
if i saw you in heaven
would you help me stand
if i saw you in heaven

I'll find my way through night and day
'cause I know I just can't stay here in heaven

Time can bring you down
time can bend your knees
time can break your heart
have you beggin' please
beggin' and please

beyond the door there's peace I'm sure
and I know there'll be no more tears in heaven

would you know my name
if I saw you in heaven
would it be the same
if i saw you in heaven

I must be strong
and carry on
'cause i know i don't belong here in heaven

'cause i know i don't belong here in heaven

Prolonged CRIB indirectly caused me to get CHronic Lazy Ass Disease!!~~

But thank God, I don't even have bedsore.. hoho!!~~
my fingers and my thoughts have been longed for posting something in this junk, but it doesn't seem to reach my motor cortex.. ngeehee..
So, while trying to wait for someone to text me, my motor cortex FINALLY working!
[OMG!! I think my right click button on this laptop is sick!~ hoh!~]

So far, I am still jobless.. but in dilemma right now.. Last Friday (just count the date from this post.. this post was posted on Sunday..) when I was sleeping like a sleeping beauty, my cell rang, and guess what.. it's Lydia from Masterskill.. yeah, as a junior nursing lecturer.. damn!~ i was waiting for call from HUKM.. but the number on my cell's screen show that it was definitely not from HUKM.. *sigh*

ok, back to the story, lydia told me that i am hired, and asked me to report for duty.. the funny thing is, at first she asked me when, then i asked her back, when should i report myself for duty, then she told me that my friend Azizul Farid told her that he will report duty on 1st October, so her expression over the phone was like wanted to ask me whether i can come with this Azizul Farid or not.. adoi.. cakap jela datang 1hb.. dah la org baru bgn tdo.. lagi nak men teka teki lak.. hoh!!~~ so, i told her yes..

i bought my ticket on the 30th.. there goes my 99-ringgit ticket on the 4th!~ my mom gonna kill me if she finds out.. but i promise, when i get my paycheck, i'll pay her back.. half maybe.. hahaha..

so, my dilemma is... i am certainly not ready to be an educator to nursing students yet!~ i wanna go into service first!!!~~~ aaa!!!~~~ but there will certainly no private hospitals out there would be keen to hire me, cuz i'm bonded!~ and the government seems to act slower than pokemon's slowpoke.. haish~~ but!~ (to many buts here!!) do i have any other choice??

someone told me to be patience and there will be way out for this one.. hoho!!~~ thanks someone.. *muah!~* [identity is classified!~ ;p) so, i am calming myself down.. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...................

i am bz with my facebook right now, having new addiction of playing games there- seeding and harvesting, killing ppl, kung-fu fighting.. and the list goes on.. i am doing all those stuff wondering when this episode of life comes into an end.. hoh!~

alrite.. that;s it i guess... damn, i though i have a lot of ideas.. siapa suruh tangguh2... langsung ilang..

p/s- miss u darl!!~~