Chapter ## : The tense is higher...

Towards the end of the year....

Hold up!~ Hold Up!~..

*Click Play if it doesn't play automatically.. It will add up nice effect on this one!~*
*If there is an overlapping song playing, go to Life, Hopes and Expectations and maybe u can find it urself.. hee...* - 

Huhu.. Yep.. It is true.. Physically, Mentally, and the most sensitive part somehow - financially and 'job-ly'..

Physically

I don't know how to classify this. Most probably comes from the other 3 risk factors, but I eat a lot - i know that I always eat a lot - but this time, a lot lot!~ more than usual.. huh!~ so basically, with BMR (basal metabolic rate) lower than those who are skinny, or not getting any additional fat or meat around the body, my body weight is actually fluctuating!~ (wahaaa!!~~ fluctuate ye dak? haha).. *sigh*
Plus, I already think that my pores have not been open up for few months already - which mean my sweat with all the potential pathogens are still inside of me. And I think, this is the reason I've been easily fatigue and extremely lazy.. (Even though this is actually my usual personal characteristic, but its more than before - again).
I am planning to do exercise everyday, but somehow I only manage to exercise vigorously - IN MY IMAGINATION!!~~ Duhhhh!!!!~~~~~ i mean like, what??? Abes tu.. nak buat cemana!~~ on TV (konon to exercise with my personal coach la..) ada pulak cerita Tentang Dhia.. hahaha... that story is somehow catches my attention.. heee...
So I am praying to The Creator - please give me the strength to exercise - not in my imagination.. huuu!!~~~

Mentally

My mental state now is not in equilibrium state. haha.. not saying that I have to be referred to psychiatrist, but councellor will do.. hahaha!~ kidding again.. There's so many things in my mind at one time, that I have to stop my brain from thinking few things at the same time. Am I a genius or what? If I am a genius, I should've been one of the richest person in the world by now.. Using a big screen pc instead of this almost 5 years lappy of mine with 1 green line at the screen.. And also most probably I am sitting comfortably in a very luxurious and comfortable bean bag that made u sink in the middle of the bag when U sit on it, and of course, having the fastest internet connection (wireless ok!`) that u can ever imagine and watching all my favourite TV series anytime that I like - ala2 tengok tv gitu.. OK stop there!~ U see.. there's a lot in my mind that I can deviate myself from telling exactly what I would like to type here!~
mmmm... Seriously, I forgot!~ dammiit!~

Others

I am so sleepy that I can't elaborate more on the other sub-topics that build up the tense in me.. Huhu.. but I think, whatever I am feeling right now is all because of the stress that I am having inside!~ of course myself would not going to admit anything that I am tired or whatever, (cuz I am built strong like ATOM in Real Steel) but as long as I can keep on moving, I will. Just like Atom.. It fight and fight and fight, till the bell rings. It did not give up. It fell, and rise.. It blacked out, but woke up.. It is ATOM!~

and U - thanks for being Charlie Kenton for me.. hee...

"WATCH ME!!~~ OK?! WATCH ME!!"

*I do not own the pic and the music!~*

Chapter ## : Is It true....

Or its just people try to talk nice about me??

I've met 2 ladies at shop - 40's - 50's,
they said that somebody is very lucky to have me..

maybe I'm just so good in messing with people life..
but not so to manage my my own..

so, my conclusion is - it's just ppl doing some nice talk to me so that I can purchase something from them.

Nice try ladies..

I feel pathetic!~ (-_-)"

Chapter ## : errrkkkk!!~~~~ back again????

Hmmm... Let's see........
Last time I typed something was on 2nd November... Mmmmm.... LAST YEAR!!~~

(@.@)

And it's been re-typed today, 1 year and 13 days later!~ hoho!~

Well... It's impossible to wrap up everything that had happened for the past 1 year right..

But, nothing that I miss because basically I am not a famous blog writer like other people... and I don't have any loyal followers like other people do also.. so, there;s nothing much to regret for that..

Most of the thing happened in the past 1 year was not so much of any events.. Life goes on as usual.. (boring).. and of course there was once a twice a lady - eh - that's a song la!~ once a twice good, nope AWESOME things happened, but somehow it is all kept in the heart..

Nothing changes me yet, I'm still the same choleric (this is what the Temperament Quiz in Facebook labelled me as!~ ) person as always.. sometimes somebody have to go through the choleric stage of mine.. mmm... how do say this.. sometimes being choleric (not having any cholera disease, ok!~) is spontaneous.. it's just hit u like TAP!!~~ (snapping finger action) and once the stage end, u'll think back - o damn!~ Did I just had a tantrum thrown at THAT particular somebody??? oh!~ so, calming down is not- I repeat is NOT the best part of me~~ never do.. THAT'S FACT!!~~ and i wonder why is that ho? kepala batu mungkin??? yea2... probably (-_-)"...

and dear somebody - I am truly sorry!~ huuu...

*this statement is only true to that somebody... not EVERYBODY!~ and EVERYBODY means those who I throw my temper ON PURPOSE - most probably because - ursodamnannoyingthatmadeulooklikeanuglypieceofdwarf!~*

And for some reason, after doing this 1 year post-mortem, i've had a dull life here in this place!~ and as usual, every piece of holiday that I get, I've been trying my best to get out of this town!!~~ but- however!~ the best that I can do is getting out IN MY DREAM!~ How pathetic is that!~

*and I wish this going to end up soon!~*

Well actually, tonight will be my last night shift. The other 2 nights was ok, but I've been attracting those with ventilator!~ 1 night, 1 ventilator!~ huhu!~ so, whose going to survive longer here?

First, someone with Heart attack in shock state (NSTEMI with Cardiogenic Shock) - simply put she had a massive heart attack that the heart and body started to fail bit by bit and not balance anymore - so of course, to save the heart, save everything (u know, like heroes - save the cheerleader, save the world.. the heart is the cheerleader and the world is the whole body!~) but of course, 75 years old, with not good prognosis, u won't get any ICU bed.. call it discrimination, but if somehow there is people who read this, and want to know more - just ask!~

*IKLAN JAP

It was 4 am in the morning, and I was doing routine vital signs monitoring to all my patients.. at 2nd cubicle, I stopped by the window and saw an ambulance from periphery hospital.. I waited there to see whether the patient that will be brought out from the ambulance is a lady, a guy, or a just another kid!~
My heart strongly suggested that this one would probably be lady.. And there I was, standing near the window.. waited patiently..
Aik.. mcm lambat la pulak kluar patient ni!~ And the other suggestion my heart strongly gave was, there must be something big with this patient.. Intubated maybe!!~~ Jeng jeng jeng!!~
Yep.. true enough.. the patient was on ventilator.. From the 2nd floor of the building I can see some tube protruding from the mouth!~ Confirmla kan!!~~
And last but not least, I believe that the patient is going to be in my ward.. So I tell my other colleague... And Yes, at 3.40 am [5 mins different from the first case admission]- there's a sound of the door opened, and of course - the most annoying sound ever - the roda of the stretcher!~ (-_-)"

*Kembali ke Cerita Asal*

The other one is having bleeding in the brain. She told her son she had some sort of headache (I believe she always had headache and that's why they might've thought this is the usual headache).. but last night, it turns out she passed out - when I say passed out, it means, she was ASYSTOLE from home to hospital!~ and the CPR-ed her for 15 minutes then thought she had some sort of heart problem.. So seen by my M.O, and he said need to send for urgent CT brain!~ (haiyooo.... pahal la itu hospital takmo anta ct brain dulu!!~~)

Cut short- the patient was actually bleeding in the head.. He suggested that the patient might already had a brain dead - which I agree if we based on the history.. huuu.. gasping2 already some more.. but we can't be sure because we can't really assess the condition as patient was under sedation.. Ok2.. so rest in the ward comfortably then... huuu...

And what awaits tonight?

Itsok, cuz tomorrow (if jadi la) is YES moment!!~~

Shop til u Drop Broken ok!!~~

No pIc AvailabLe!~