Life

Career:-

i've made my decision to report duty to the only working offer i have, instead of keep on waiting on promises made without justification and guarantee. on 1st october 2009, i am officially an employee of **********.. damn, it sux to know that this organization is my first place to be employed. but whatever it is, face it!~

students were in large number.. in fact, HUGE!~ facilities - not so well organized.. it's not able to cater the students.. students - macam haram.. of course not all of them, but that's what u get on the first impression of mine.. sometimes, it's so hard to breath when u have to handle these students. maybe there will definitely be a bunch of them who are not bad among thousands of them, but of course, you will not find them immediately..

colleagues so far not bad.. few of my classmates are here as well - farid, noyan, linda, kecik, and sunee..

when i was interviewed, they told us to send us for clinical posting - i thought it was a solid clinical posting for my friends and i before we go for teaching and CI-ing the students.. darn!~ it was not going to be that way.. first day of seeing the posting manager (who happened to be the ex-matron of hukm.. *erkkk!~~~*), bad bad bad... ade ke patot nak anto kitorang g umah org tua to jaga the students!!~~ haish... we insist on going to hospital, sudah kena lecture.. in front of other senior CI lagi.. ape daaa~!!~~

first and second day was the not-so-impressive induction days. not excited at all.. layannn....

then we helped out the staff for OSCE... hahaha... so funny and at some point, i think i am going to have heart attack seeing them.. i've seen students who are not performing well in their osce before, but sad to say, this one's worst!~

this coming monday, i am posted to selayang hospital!!~~ *matikudasai*.. if they ask me to give lecture to students, i am of course in my full confidence, but CI-ing the students???? OMG!~~ it's just that to teach them clinically is MAJOR PROBLEM to not only me, but of course all of us.. this is where we are lacking, and this is the part where our school where we graduated will fire us because of this..

talking about our school, haish.. ini lagi satu headache.. my previous HOD (as well as other lecturers) keep on asking us to quit, quit and quit~~ of course i dont like it here, but what should i do?? i need job and i am seriously tired to be jobless again!~

spa called me up for interview for the post of jururawat u41.. somehow, i dont know whether i will get the post or not.. but i guess, there will be no harm going for the interview.. so, i'll be going to the interview on this coming 16th...


Weekend:-
today is saturday, and i am at home.. huhu... syg is having kenduri and i am in my confusing state whether to go or not.. so i am solely depending on syg final decision whether i should go or not.. so, he;s answer is of course no resulting me lepaking at home today.. why on earth i am confuse kan???? because, so far, i have no official introductory to his aunt (except during convo where i only get to say 'mak long', and salam her) plus MASSIVE feelings of guilt for stopping in front of her house not greeting her, EVERYTIME!~ (haish... sshla.. i dont know why, syg also satu, never want to ask me to greet her at her house.. slalu main kuar jek...) adoi..

this is my big conflict now... so everytime syg mention about his older family members - mmg sure aku rase besalah nak mampos.. adeh.... hmmm... mcm mn nih....

k lah.. aku da penat.. nnt la sambong... i dont really feel well... *aaahhh--- choooo@!