Life... Marriage... Job... Love...

2010 is almost here.. less than 10 days..
It's been a while since my last post.. So many things that I wrote in my head, and still wont be able to find perfect time for me to transfer it here..
Lots of things happened of course, cuz that's how life supposed to be..
Laughter and cry, smile and sulk, happy and sad, it's the essence of life, that nobody can deny it..
So many things happened, yet it was another experienced for me in maneuvering my pity life..
Awal Muharram was last week.. and there goes another new year in the islamic calendar..
Right now, I am sitting in a cubicle, in branch campus of this college i am still working with.. *sigh*

*Life*
My life for the past days was not very hectic.. Everything was ok.. Sometimes happy, sometimes just ok.. and maybe, when the times comes, it was pathetic... hmmm... *sigh*
But nothing is going to be okay just like that.. Sometimes, putting an effort despite what you never do before can give you a little bit of challenge.. I am trying so hard to beat the challenge, but sometimes I fail.. damn.. Is it me?? yeah, most probably..
On the other hand, my miserable life has calm down in such a way that i was trying to not to get mad easily.,. i can feel that it reduce my misery, but still, sometimes, I do fail badly.. hmmm... *sigh*
If i blame on this physiology of mine, is it the same as blaming the God??? If it is, then I do not dare to blame it..
I came across that this anger feelings comes from the devil.. hmmm... Dear God, please keep the devils far far away from me... :(
Because this anger will burn me inside out, and of course, it'll 'eat up' other people..
Most of the times, I have already imagined that I will calm down., I'll be okay, no heart feelings, try to talk this and that, but somehow, during encountering session - I failed - again - *sigh*
Not Good... :-(

*Marriage*
Congratulations to Noyan, for her wedding on last November.. I was there... huhu..
My deepest and heartiest appreciation to Noyan for honouring me to be her maid of honour..
It was such a great experience, and it was also my first time being a maid of honour to somebody... huhu...
The trip was great, and of course, I went there with him.. :)
We spent most of the daylight time at Batu Pahat, and then almost dawn, we went back home.. He has futsal that night.. No time to go wandering around JB.. Itsok... huhu..
Nice... :)

*Job*
I am still working here as Jr. Lecturer / CI in this institution... My official resignation will be on 19th January... I was busy with being the examiner for the students' OSCE - different groups.. and each group will have students who - for sure- giving you big headache, as well as big pain the ass.. To think of it I am really sad to see that these ppl are the one who are going to be the future nurses.. Could be the one who will nurse me or my family members, could be my colleague.. OMG>.. I am TERRIFIED~ and maybe HORRIFIED at the same times..
It's not that I am very mean, and I like to fail them, but with all the easy procedures - some of them still could not do it... Even the basic one like taking temperature and measuring blood pressure.. GOD.. please help them... huhu..
Today, I started to go in classes - replacing lecturers who could not make it to their classes...
I love teaching.. But yeah, it's going to be the students whom you will seek back and wait for the outcome..
Hmmm... itsok... Even though I am replacing, I'll teach them as best as I could..
I guess the best experience for me was when 1 of my students sent me a msg telling me that she was lucky to have me as her lecturer because I was a good lecturer (simply translated.. huhu..)
Thank you God for giving me the ability to teach someone... hehhee...
But somehow, I will not going to teach that long.. The SPA result was out, and I succeed the interview. I am accepted to the Ministry of Health for the post of Staff Nurse U41~~
Huhu... But I haven't recieve any official letter from the Ministry yet.. But the feeling of nervousness is still here, because I have no idea where I will be sent to..
I hope that it will not be not-so-likable places...
Hoping... :)

*Love*
Sometimes Laugh,
Sometimes Cry,
Sometimes Happy,
Sometimes Not So-so,
Always love,
Always smile - even not showing it,
Always missing u...
Nourishing... XO