Chapter VII: not the best days..

the past few days, i felt an enormous emptiness surrounds me...
in fact, yeah.. until today..

:(

i feel pathetically hopeless...

no one i can turn to..

am i that bad???

but why??

my smiles are fake...

my laugh are even like completely fake...

i dont feel good...

:(

i feel like cursing - of course to myself - but i wanted to curse it out loud...

but it seems like it stuck in my head... which, giving me a hell of headache..

i hate the silence...

the quiet scares me cuz it screams the truth....

i tried to say something..

but in turn,

it still silence...

maybe silence is the answer..

so silence, i shall be...


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or perhaps...

i'm not good enough...

they said..

shoot for the moon, if u fail, u'll land among stars...

but i still hit the ground.. hard..

and it's awfully painful...

and i have to bear it all by myself..

in this stupid place..